IT'S NO COINCIDENCE

Fresh like morning coffee

Brewing in life's kitchen

My mind is alert and sharp

Like a candle in the dark

held high

I view the open sky with amusement

It's no coincidence

That the ether and I are kin

We are both made of the same thing

Dark matter

And darkness matters more than you think

Use your instincts

Let them guide you

To the god that lives inside you

Inside us all

It's no coincidence

That we need each other

We are all one

With the same mother

EARTH...

-Moshia'

INSECURITY

Your motive for action

Is lacking in substance

It's surely a nuisance

Brutal and judgmental

Assumptions rule

Facts far removed

The rhythm escaped us

Out of sync and awkward

now moving backward

Undoing good deeds

Up-rooting seeds

Of promise

My Character crucified

Under the cracked sky

Love is an obstacle

Packed with lessons to learn

Tomorrow may find me wiser

But today I got burned

If you learned anything

The last round was worth it

Love is a battlefield

There's No way to skirt it

In the end

who deserves this

Degradation that demoralizes us

Leaving us transfixed

Unhealthy thoughts permeating

And emotions running rampant

Cloying at beauty and wonder

Ripping love asunder

Tears well up in my eyes

Creating oceans

Losing sight of me

Going through the motions

All in my mind

When nurtured

manifested

Mother nature blessed it

I thought we were the best fit

Then fear moved in

The roof caved in

All was lost...

-Moshia'

Perfect love casts out all fear.......

SHATTERED

Today I feel quiet

Reserved even

Heart's bleeding

I sometimes resent it

The one who sent it

With no instructions

How do I repair it

When it's all in pieces

What is the purpose

Of all this

Holding it makes me nervous

Why can't it behave

Enslaved to the rhythm

Entangled in the beat

Always on the hunt

For something sweet

No rest for the loveless

Heart's unruly

Trusting the thief

To run away with my goods

Leaving behind thorns and thistles

Eyes that drizzle

Acid rain

Energy drained

Broken to the core

Love no more...

-Moshia'

WHAT WOULD YOU DO?

What would you do if you were me?

Would you decide to avoid been taken on those rocks at 9? 

Would you decide not to get fondled all the time 

by strange men that were friends, neighbors and family? 

What would you have done at 13 on the run? 

Running from your family because they don't understand you

even when your not wrong they still reprimand you. 

How would you deal with your uncle raping you

not knowing that his ugliness was slowly shaping you? 

How would you escape from the memories and pain? 

How would you salvage you from the stain? 

How would you handle your 1st consented sexual excursion? 

How could you be certain?  

Do you think you could endure, 

without turning out a whore, or even, an addict? 

Would you panic or be composed 

pack them away neatly or explode? 

Would you loose your mind, 

Or walk around looking crazy all the time, 

can't even concentrate but your forced to walk a line? 

Would you  kill yourself spazzing from the pain of being you? 

I grew

But what would you do?

-Moshia'

FRIENDS

Some friends are easy to lose

You know the ones that use you anyway

Sad to say 

But friends can be condescending 

smiling; all the while pretending

They can't wait to see you fall off track

Get with their other friends 

And talk about you behind your back

Ha ha ha

You've got some nerve trying to give me that 

Thinking you deserve to have real friends

 I don't have time to teach you 

But I'm confident Karma will reach you 

The end...

ALONE AGAIN

Well I am free again. For the first time in my life, I got dumped. Lol. Serves me right. Anyway every other time I thought it was over I cried my eyes out, thinking of all the things I would miss. But I don't keep dwelling on things that are not soon to change. It didn't make us happy. He obsessed about inconsequential things and maybe so did I. But as I told him before we got started, I sincerely hope we both find happiness, I still say the same now. I have come to the realization that I am not ready for love. I will never be if my honesty and openness will always be used as a weapon against me. I refuse to be treated as a whore, when I know my intentions are pure. He taught me something though, fear and paranoia will drive you to destroying all possibility of happiness. I saw myself in him. But I will not allow my fears to destroy me. I wanna love him but he's too far from me.

I remember in the beginning

I had the feeling he was not mine

Now I feel stupid

I should have listened to my guide

And avoided all this pain inside

Still, I had to prove it

I don't mind being alone or celibate

But he felt so good in my arms

And I'll miss the way he looked at me

Always telling me I'm beautiful

To be truthful those days quickly passed anyway

He was more concerned with my pass than today

Here I am right before you

Open to you

So inlove

Yet you're distracted

My past is all you can think of

Presently, I am here waiting for you to love me

But you're distraction tells

Exactly what you think of me

Shame on me

For not trusting myself

And going back on my word

I deserve...

-Moshia'

PENETRATE ME

I wanna make love to you

Not just sex for sex sake

Real love, you inside of me

And I inside of you

Our hearts and minds

And bodies connected

But when I reach out

I feel so rejected

My heart hurts

And my body aches

Let's just make love

For loves sake

Put the stars back in my eyes

While I submit with open thighs

My heart is open too

As we join I can think of only you

Make love to me papi

Make me feel like you love me

Worship every inch of my skin

Touch and taste me

Penetrate me

With your warm affections

This feels so right

So why does everything else go so wrong?

-Moshia'