THE BROKEN BUTTERFLY JOURNALS PART 2

I really miss that feeling of abandon I was able to feel or allowed myself to feel when we touch. I think we need some touch therapy. I was alot more receptive to sex when our touch game was hott. It was better. His gentle touch made me feel giddy and a bit entranced, out of sorts.. But I was healing, not to mention feeling like I could fly. The world was my oyster, I had grown new wings, but now brought low by feelings of distrust and the fear of being left with self-disgust. I can hear love calling and I can hear my hearts rebel. If love is so good why do I end up feeling so blue. Maybe the trouble is trying to find love outside of you... Hmm..

I wanted to feel love- pure and true

I wanted to taste the unspoiled fruit

of truth and love as one..

What I want from love is truth

something real

not artificial commercial appeal

not the watered down version

so popular these days

Love that unlocks the gates

to a different reality

love that you can't duplicate

when you're not with me...

Love that sets us both free

not just you and imprison me...          


                                      #EWAY